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Current Location: lost in her notes
Current Mood: busybusy
Current Music: Diamond by Kat-tun
26 November 2015 @ 12:03 am

In a way I can understand his decision to leave, I understand that he has reached a point in his life where he probably isn’t as happy as he used to be. Something that made him once isn’t making him happy any longer. People change, we change so why wouldn’t our idols change? As everyone else they have the right to decide what’s best for them and their future.

Is my heart breaking? Yes for the third time now. Will it heal? Perhaps in time...

Did I cry? Of course I did. I'm crying all over again as I type this. I have stopped now but that doesn’t mean it hurts any less or I won’t start again, I’m a very sensitive person after all.

Right now I don’t see how they are gonna remain 3 after that with half of the members. How will they continue? How will they sing their old songs again? Covering for one was easy, for two something could be done but now for three? How is it going to work?

I have a feeling my biggest fear will come true and they are going to disband for good. I don’t trust the JE’s words that the remaining three will keep going, I don’t trust them...they had told enough times in the past that things would be okay only to be proved otherwise.

The question is what I’m going to do..part of me wants to quit... part of me wants to bury all the memories deep inside my heart, delete everything related to them bury all the files old and new in my external along with my external in some dark corner...and there’s a part of me who can’t let go, who wants to stay and see what will happen next.

I want to support them and at the same time I don’t. I don't know if I have the strength or the will anymore. I don't want to do this anymore, I don't want to stay and wait until spring only for the pain to come back again when Junno will say goodbye. I'm acting like a freaking teenaager now.

I know it's unfair and I know in this tough situation I should be here to support them. But I can't do this, at least not right now.

8 years in this fandom...I have been a fan for 8 years and it's hard to believe all the tears I've been shed and still shedding...For someone who's on the other side of the planet...

Nontheless I want to say thank you to KAT-TUN. Thank you for everything. Thank you for all the happiness you have brought to me and the tears. Thank you cause you were the reason I've made some wonderfull friends.

Whatever you decide to do next I might not be here to see it, only time will show.

Be happy Junno. Be happy KAT-TUN.

Somehow it sounds like a goodbye....
18 October 2014 @ 04:00 pm
To all fellow writers who don't know  there's a website which is using a bot which searches LJ for entries with tags like 'fanfic', 'fanfiction', 'fan fic', etc.

The owner is mostly after public entries and it's not only about fics but also random (public) personal posts. That person does not ask ask for any kind of permission from the original source though he has links to the LJ from which the post was taken but there are also entire entries posted directly there (for example a full chapter/oneshot/drabble). He claims that he has every right to take what someone else is posting since it's already up on the internet.

You can visit that site via this link: http://www.donotlink.com/framed?561309 which allows you to see the site without contributing to its thus helping the owner make more money.

The site has a search option at the top right corner so you can go there and type your lj username or your fic(s) title(s) and see if there's something yours there.

If you find something then you have to go to the complain page (below the search option) or the remove blog button and demand for your content to be immediately removed and for your account(s) to be added on the exclude list so that nothing yours will be up there again.

For more details visit THIS POST. She is doing a great job trying to get the word to as many ppl as she can.

Please spread this around as much as you can, let everyone know what's going on.

And please avoid using the tags mentioned above, be carefull.
09 October 2013 @ 10:42 pm
This is not going to be a happy post...be warned...

Who would have ever thought that I'd come to see my fav group being ripped apart? They started as 6 and now they ended being 4...

I first came to the fandom in the late 2007 when KAT-TUN was still 6 and I grew to love them so much. They show me a way to deal with all I had been going through and everything started to feel brighter.

Then the news of Jin leaving the group for good came and I was devastated. I refused to believe it, I thought it was just a big bad joke and the next day Jin would say 'haha I fooled you' but no it was true. I have no idea how I manage to get over it back then. I was crying for a good week and my parents got worried.

And now the past is repeating itself... this time with Koki... he is not even my favorite but still I feel the same with Jin...exactly the same... It's wrong, so wrong. He might have done mistakes but why would you just kick him out? Why didn't you just put him on hiatus? And why it seems like it was already planned all along? That maybe those pics were leaked on purpose to just find a way to get rid of him?

Somehow I'm scared of what is going to come next, who's gonna leave and such. I hate to think like this, I hate living the same thing for the second time. At first I was ok or more like I thought I was okay, I kept saying to myself that I was never a big fan of Koki so it'd be fine. Who I was kidding?

Good luck Koki who knows now that you are free from JE you might do wonders! And KAT-TUN I know the future will be hard but fighting, when a door closes a new one is open!

A new era has began. Now the question is will I be here to see how it will go?
Current Location: nowhere
Current Mood: gloomygloomy
Current Music: Real Face
27 August 2013 @ 07:25 pm
I just felt that it's time for me to do an f-cut.
If you can no longer see my locked entries then you know what it means. If you still wish to be my friend please comment and I will not cut you or I will add you back if I already did. Those whom I added first aren't in danger of getting cut, plus the ones I'm regularly talking with outside lj (you know who you are).
The reason I'm doing this is because I have a lot ppl with whom I haven't talked once ever since I added them (perhaps it' s my own fault) and I wanna clear my list.
Current Location: in my room
Current Mood: accomplishedaccomplished
Current Music: Key to you heart by Jin
12 May 2013 @ 12:38 am
JE Big Bang
23 September 2012 @ 07:29 pm

Congratulations PapaJin and MamaMeisa!!!


Your baby girl is finally here!! I can’t describe how much happy I’m right now!! I’m just overwhelmed!! *teary eyes*

Jin’s dream to have a family has come true and now he was a daughter! I know he was going to be one great father!! Both him and Meisa they are gonna be wonderful parents!!

I wish you from the depths of heart all the happiness in the world to all three of you!!

Gosh it feels like yesterday I discovered Jin and fell in love with him. And look at him now! He’s married, he has his little princess!! He has everything he ever wanted and I’m so proud for him!!

Again congratulations to both, your baby is going to be gorgeous since she has gorgeous parents!!

Jin take good care of your two precious women!!


PS: I can totally imagine him being all over his daughter, not letting her out of his sight for a minute :) And being teary and might cried when he held her for the first time <3

Now if you excuse I’m going to drown in my auntie/granny/happy/overwhelmed feelings!!


PS2: I hope we will get to see the baby with her parents!! Even a pic of her tiny hand!! :D

Current Location: in my room
Current Mood: cheerfulcheerful
Current Music: Seasons by Jin Akanishi
07 September 2012 @ 04:34 pm

Oh how much I miss this guy T___T
Finally we get to see him...after like 6 months of nothing *___*
Hopefully this means we will get that interview soon.
And in general hear something from him after all this time.
Now if we excuse I'm gonna cry to the corner *sobs*
Current Location: in my room
Current Mood: calmcalm
Current Music: Tell Me Where by Akanishi Jin
14 August 2012 @ 12:08 am
Originally posted by bellemelody at FUND-RAISING FOR HABAGAT FLOOD VICTIMS

Habagat Fund Raising
Banner by: sugarbloodlolli
(cute sun by silverbtf@deviantart and cute star by smileysgalore@Zazzle)

The month of August has brought with it the Southwest Monsoon or Habagat pouring heavy rains on Metro Manila and nearby provinces. The result was severe flooding in those places. (Aerial photos and other pictures here) Many of the roads were not passable. Thus, food and drinking water are harder to come by. Not to mention the lives and properties that were lost during this calamity.

It has been days since the sun shone on that part of the country. That is why we are asking for your help and be the sun that will warm the hearts of those affected by this calamity. Let us, once again, use our creativity and passion in raising funds for this worthy cause. (Total funds gathered during the Sendong Auction is posted on the sidebar)

   For this fund-raising event, we are opening two categories: $1-for-a-drabble and $1-for-an-art. To know the mechanics and sign up, click on the link below.


There is another fund raising run by je_philippines. If you are from a JE fandom and would like to offer more, you can visit them.


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